YAY! for words.

i didnt know that things could change so radically fast. i was sad. but now life is coming at me different. smaller things that mean nothing to most mean more to me now. it is a weird feeling. and i dont want it to go away. i wont let it go away. i have been writing more music lately. i hate how people feel like they should rush their music. i think you should take as long as you want. fuck record labels. eh. i think. but really people try to hard to write music and never end up writing anything. or they do but it sucks. i love fufusoda. like if you would just take your time it could really mean so much more to you than just a 10 minute project or so. i mean yeah i have had those inspirations hit me like a mother fucker and i could write a song right there. finished. but i see the best is being patient. i have stuff that is years old and that is now finished. man. so today there was this big brown couch at this random hardware store. i miss the couch. i like bixby a little more now too. surprising. very. the arkansas river is so ugly but it was so pretty today at the same time. i felt like a monster hopping in a desert. my favorite word right now is okay. there are so many people. how come everyday i see a new person. like i feel like this place i live in is so small. but i see a new face everywhere i go. even the places i go to everyday, there is a new face. i like itttttt. i need b o s t o n. i found out great news. berklee requires no act testing. yes. that made me so happy. ahahahahahahajdflkajsdf;lajsd;lfjhqerwphitudsaklajdfa;sldkfhewr09iqhofjwkads. <--- that is me smiling.
my parents pissed me off tonight. i get home at ohh 10:30 and they are outside just drinking some wine. trying to make their life happy and hip i guess. ew. then we start talking. like for real. why are people so fucking negative. now looking back at pass blogs i am negative too. and tonight i am deciding to stop. no more negative london. yes thats right get ready for a craaaazy life.
I will take you where you never thought you would go