I am begging you no.

there is no pain you feel that love cannot heal.

false.

imtheonlyonewhothinksthisway.
i have this kitty.. it was a wild kitty. it was lost, starved, and abandoned by its mother, the kitties mother left her. but i think the mother was thinking about ME when she left her most prized thing behind the dumpster in this world. the mother knew that i was lost and just needed something to save me. a friend. the mother left her kitty so i could find it. and keep it with me in my arms. although the kitty was lost and abandoned by her mother it showed nothing but love to me. the kitty came to me first. the kitty loved me first. the kitty didnt care that i was human and evil in a kittens eye. it knew that i was also lost just like it once was. so it found me. it took me and i took the kitty. this was the moms plan along. to use her possession as the key to real love.

starring at the feather in the water only brings the bird back to it's nest.

i need an apple mind.

imobsessedwithmemories.eveniftheyarehorrible.allidoissithereinthisfuckingcubiclethingkingaboutthem.itslikemymindhasacomputervirusandpopupsjustkeepappearingandtheprotectionipaidfordoesntdoshit.stupidwindows.itslikeihavethediseasewhereimalwaysparanoid.idkithinkitgetitfrommymom.orishouldstopbeingnaughty.naaah.itstoofun.butmyheartcanttakethismuch.memories.thatiswhyilikemusic.thatisreallytheonlyreasonilikemusic.everysongihearicantellyouwhatitremindsmeof.everysongbringsamemory. m u s i c  i s  a  m e m o r y . itslikeadrug.ithinkmoreaboutthepastthenidothefuture.iknowitsnothealthy.iwishiwashappy.butthosememoriesaresomuchhappierthenmypresent.ithinkmypaymentisdo. t h e  e d g e  f e e l s  m o r e  l i k e  a  f r i e n d  t h a n  y o u  e v e r  w i l l .